Jesus and Hot Chips

During the fast I ended another fast, the most delicious fast... Flamin' Hot Cheetos. I was worried about my stomach lining and I seem to take on addictive habits and those chips, those were my favorite habit. I have had this pain right under my rib cage for a very long time. I still notice it but it's nowhere near what it was when I was eating these crutch chips daily. While listening to a Rachel Hollis book, she mentioned giving something up for 30 days for the sake of will power. We all have something that we don't need in our lives and what better way to encourage growth than to throw yourself into a "bet ya can't " situation. I gave up Flamin' Hot Cheetoe's but this bag of Doritos Dinamita was found on day 2 of my fast. I felt like this would be cheating so I chose not to eat them. I've been very aware of their presence. I've seen them. Staring at me. I love heat and sour and these are JUST SO GOOD. Despite that, at no point during my 30 days did I waver. I was annoyed at the fact that I would have to start all over if I did but I also thought, could I really stick to something for 30 whole days? I don't know that I have ever done something like that. I mean fast during lent but this was only for the true end result of just saying that I could for the heck of it. And I did it. It feel weird to be able to say I did a full 30 days without something that wasn't good for me for the sake of will power only. I was curious about my stomach ailment but that was not main the reason. I think it just feels like adulthood is here. And to prove it, I've also added more water to my diet and even more water on top of that because I'm working out. I'm not sure how things will be long term but these things feel like a life shift. Lots of knowledge from random structure being built internally as well as outwardly.

I tried a chip from the bag pictures above and it was good. I missed it. I know I want more so I'll have to decide what that looks like because I don't need them. They're not good for me. This could possibly be the last bag brought into my house. My stomach feels hot.

So what does 30 days look like for you? Have you ever done that? Do you subscribe to the Rachel Hollis stuff? I wasn't really down with her because I'm interested in Christ related life truth more than self help but I found this to be helpful. I kind of want to read her book. Or listen to it at least. Anyway, I just proved to myself that I can do something by sheer willpower. It's powerful to know you can do something when you feel like failure is always looming. I guess it goes back to what you really believe. If you believe you can, you probably can. So, I think whatever that thing is for me, I will.

And just for fun because I think it's important to mention- I've been writing on this blog every day, Monday through Friday for all of January. Mostly late night "oops I forgot" moments but last night I got my butt up out of bed at 9:45pm and walked downstairs and grabbed my computer and wrote and posted a blog post. Just because I said I would for 2020. I have a goal to work everyday but not take away time from the kids so weekends are off and most of the daytime is off too. I'm still a bit in my emotions but I'm stating to feel like I'm in the upswing and I'm going to hit momentum soon and hopefully can keep pace. My birthday is in a freakin' day and I'll be 35. I have life change stuff happening all the time but however God is uprooting and growing me, I'm hopeful.

He is gracious with me. And oh, so, patient!