Homeschool in a Pandemic

I have been spending lots of time with the kids learning about everything. Any question they have, I get an answer and then build mini lessons and offer examples for them to understand better. I select books from the Memoria Press schedule and read to all 3 kids with some light crafts and projects that line up with it. My 4th grader is doing the bare minimum of the work required from the schedule and will be doing school the entire year except for English/Language Arts/ Classical Composition. He currently is working with a friend of mine who is teaching/tutoring him for that course. I think I realized at some point that everyone would be happier if I did less scheduled learning and more immersive learning. Don't get me wrong, I'm still using the entire curriculum and yes, like previous posts mentioned, it's according to our broken schedule but my oh my, these little ones sure are learning. My 4th grader is reading large books, finishing Harry Potter books within a weeks time, in between Hardy boys books and various other things he gets his hands on, weekly. The little one's have mastered numbers, letters and some writing. Everyone is memorizing scripture and I'm not sure if me keeping them home will be long term but I feel less anxious about it either way. Some mornings I think I can take them to the private school I want them to go to and then I'll just be home setting up the evening to be with them. Other times I think I can't get out of bed and I'm doing an amazing job since everyone is on task and they've become little memorizing factories. Still other days, I feel selfish for my blog and other small business adventures and I still feel like as a homeschool mom, who attended a private school that I will never measure up to those academic standards. I do really miss them seeing people in person. There are things about the real world that I can't quite teach them. There are things in the real world that I can't offer them unless we joined other homeschool groups in the suburbs. I know what people mean when they talk about the lack of socialization but I think about how it's on the outs due to the pandemic. And if they go back to school the possibility of them getting sick again and sitting in a class with plexiglass around them probably isn't that great of an environment. I would hate to send the littles to school with that being their environment. At the end of this I want to have poured out everything I have for these babies. I want to be my absolute best I can be and teach them everything and I really feel like homeschool allows me to serve them best. I just hope it's enough for the rest of the world.